Solace

I found it.. even had it in my grasp for a short few moments.. but at least I know it can be found again. Hope has been restored that there is serenity in a time of turmoil.

I found my solace late at night, when all were asleep, and I sat on the floor in Emilia's room with a cup of hot tea and folded her clothes. Emilia's room has been the room in which I have found the most peace. I sense my grandmother's presence there and it is ever so strong. I had dreams of my grandmom Emilie throughout my whole pregnancy and a couple of times even sensed her in the nursery. When Emilia is laying on the changing table she is always looking over my shoulder or behind me and she begins to smile, coo and blow bubbles. Without a doubt I know that my grandmother is there and it comforts me knowing that she is my daughter's, her namesake's guardian angel.

Now that I know that solace can be found... I am on the quest to find it more often and for longer periods of time... but when and where to start? I'm going to go now & get a hot cup of tea and sit with Emilia in her room......that's a start.